why not?

I think that I am at a good place today. Why? I am not sure. Could it be that I have had reassurance from some great friends? Maybe. Could it be that I have been riding the wave of 'eating less' due to the stomach flu this past weekend? Maybe. I am not going to question it. Just enjoy it. "Thank you God for even the smallest victories." Last night I had to make a run to Walgreens. These are usually my moments of 'temptation' and usually FAILING. Anyway.....I went in, picked up the needed item and then stopped by the snack isle. I did purchase some rice cakes, some Triscuts and a water purifying pitcher, but the REAL victory came when I drove past Taco Bell and didn't stop. Laugh if you must but for me, this is VICTORY. I know, I know only one time but it was a start. I am trying to re-train my thoughts. I believe it can be done. I don't have to stay in the rut I have been in for 20 years (maybe more). God is in the smallest things in our lives. This is a big one for me. Bondage. That's what I call it. I long to be free. Maybe just one link in the chain fell off last night.

Welllllll. I am completely sore. My daughter got a Wii Fit for Christmas and I have used it two days in a row (today would be the third and I promise I will go get to it after I write!). I guess the fact that I am sore is a GOOD thing? Just taking it one day at a time!

Today IS the day

Ok, so here is my beautiful family. The reason I post this picture is to show my FAT BUTT. I am watching Dr. Oz even as I write this. I am going to attempt to go on his 28-day Faw food plan. I just went to the doctor and received test results that were not good. I am going to post them just to be accountable.

Choleterol: 272 (should be less than 200)

Triclyceride: 231 (should be less than 150)

HDL: 42

LDL: 184 (should be 100-130)

Weight: 260 waist: 48"

I know that I have to change ALL of these. I am overwhelmed but I somehow feel that this is the year that I will change. I know that it will take much prayer. I believe that God can help me along with the tools I am learning from Dr. Oz and some other great people. The fact of the matter is that I am just plain lazy. I love to lay around and sleep, oh and eat! I am kind of scared with the idea that I am slowly killing myself. OH MY GOSH. Why would I not want to live for this great famly? I am selfish. Enough is enough.