Wow...motherhood is daunting. Sometimes I feel like I am dreaming and will wake up soon and all the good stuff will be gone and all the bad stuff will be true. I guess you can tell that I am not an optimist! Bummer! I just want my girls to grow up knowing that I was there for them and that I love them so much that sometimes I had to make hard decisions regarding them. Does that make sense? Does anyone else out there feel like me? Please respond so I don't feel so alone.

"Stop insulting God with your worry." Really?

Aren't 'worry' and 'motherhood' synonyms? I just can't seem to get past the thought that my worry and concern will somehow DO something. I know it sounds crazy. I have really been asking God to show me some answers. You know how they say that when you get to be a mom you fully realize how YOUR mom felt? I'm there! If my mom knew half of the things that I did she would have hardly been able to function. I know that God preserved my life and I am eternally grateful. I just want my girls to live lives of NO COMPROMISE. I want the fruit from their lives to be bigger and better than mine. I am open to see what my Father will teach me through this. If you have teenage girls......pray for them. Everyday. Never give up. "God, I am giving them back to you as they were never mine to begin with."

what journey

I have been a trip for quite some time. I have a hard time staying on the road. I thought maybe this process of writing down my thoughts might help me focus. Do you think it will work? I have the best of intentions and yet somehow I veer off to one side or the other. All I really want is for my kids to see a mom who 'stuck with it' even when the whole world seemed against her.